Now, it's that commitment that I made to myself, for myself, to my family, to Maia and the coaches and my friends at bootcamp that keeps me coming back day after day! Really! I've had a tough week with work and at home. Does anyone know how tough it is to have a child or to have ADHD?! Aw man! It can be exhausting! I've been working on 4 hours of sleep per night and if I'm lucky 4 hours straight.
I was looking forward to every day at Boot Camp last week. Somehow conveniently I forgot that arms day meant lots and lots of pushups! But, this week i was able to do 20 straight "regular" pushups before having to switch to girl pushups! I haven't been able to do that in a very long time!
Thursday was probably the toughest day I've had since I started this challenge. It was the first day that I thought of staying home. I was pretty physically exhausted and took a nap when I got home. When my boyfriend woke me up and asked if I was ready for class, I said not really. My body was achey, I'd felt sick to my stomach all day and I was just exhausted. had not eaten anything since I'd gotten home (I have to eat to make it thru class!) and I had to leave the house in 15 minutes to make it on time. BUT I got dressed and headed to boot camp! It seemed like I wasn't the only one that was having a tough time and I know everyone had their own reasons. LIFE HAPPENS! I also think it was the toughest class for me so far because I just did not have the energy. It really helped me when Ashley came by and did pushups and a few other moves next to me! In the end though, I felt so good to have finished the class and having done my best. We really are tougher than we think we are!
Monday's after class meeting was powerful! Maia's questions always get me thinking about things differently. And that has been the case since the first test group meeting we had. Even though in the end, one of the bonuses of all of this work and sweat will be feeling comfortable on the beach, the truth is that it is much more meaningful than that for me.
A little over 1 year ago, my son had a terrible accident where he fractured his C5 bone his neck, suffered a terrible concussion, got 9 staples on his head and had to wear a neck brace for almost 2 months. I am blessed that he is alive. You would never know he had such a terrible accident if you saw him now. For almost a year, I worked and took care of him at home and ran back and forth from doctors appts, hospitalizations, e/r visits. Well my focus as a mom was to take care of him and just didn't have the time to take care of me. That's what moms do right?! I wouldn't change it.
It has been tough for me to get back to a routine of working out. I started working out again sporadically and have just really struggled with my eating and a good workout routine.
My reasons why:
- I needed the structure to get back to taking care of myself so that I could continue to be strong for my family.
- I am a single mom and I want to do everything in my power to be strong and healthy so that I can be around to help my son with life! I'm 41 and I still talk to my mom almost every day!
- My family has diabetes, high blood pressure, and autoimmune disease like lupus and polymyositis. If there is anything I can do to improve my chances at a healthy life, I WILL.
- My mom was disabled at the age of 47 and lived about 4 years with symptoms before the doctors could figure out what she had.
GOALS: Do my best every day in my working out and eating! Log my food (it's a struggle for me!) Be a good example! Remember that change is tough, but never stop trying to do better.
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