I really can't believe there is only one week of the 60 day challenge left! I think that most of us in the group might feel the same way. It has been an amazing journey for me in more ways than one. For one, reading all of my camp mates blogs and writing my own has forced me into this habit of reflecting of where I am at in MY journey every week.
We have weigh in tomorrow right? So stressful for me! I'm hoping I lost at least 1/4 of an inch somewhere but who knows. My scale at home shows that my weight is staying steady, I'm at a decent weight and I haven't put the few pounds that I've lost back on, which is a huge accomplishment for me. I wore pants today that I wore during the Summer and I couldn't button the top button! I probably shouldn't have worn them. LOL, but I just refused to go out and buy bigger clothes. I did not and do not want to feel comfortable in bigger clothes. So for about 2 weeks I have been at about 1 lb. over an under my BMI to be within "normal" range (That is HUGE for me!). All this time and for the past few years I have been "overweight" according to my BMI! I just have not been able to lose the weight! I'm still on the borderline so it's so easy to just gain it all back and I DO NOT WANT TO DO THAT! I just get very frustrated with myself.
I've tried to keep my desire to get more toned and lose weight and now inches to a small group who I know understands. A lot of people will say that I'm so small and look great and I know that I don't have huge numbers to lose, but it's frustrating to know that I still have extra weight on and not be able to figure out HOW to keep it off for so long. Yes, I have been overweight according to my BMI for a few years. This is the first time in a very long time that I see 125 on the scale and that it hasn't jumped right back up to over 130! I just need to figure out how to be successful with my eating and not sabotage my efforts.
Body- I feel better in a lot of my clothes. They are not as tight. My legs are stronger and my lungs are stronger. I ran yesterday when I was unable to make it to THAT TEAM's workout because my car broke down. I was able to run up a few hills with ease when not too long ago I could not make it up the hill without having to walk. I'd used my inhaler at 12 and didn't use it again before I went out at 5. I was able to run without it!
Learning- I continue to remind myself to be patient with me. That this is a process. A life long journey that I am back on. I will continue to learn the right things to feed my body so that I can be successful. I am really happy with where I am at today though. Even though I did not meet my original weight loss goal. I realize it was unrealistic and that's o.k. for now. I know I will look good next Summer OR sooner!
I am still trying to figure out why I do what I call the "mindless" eating. I notice I eat when there is too much going on in my life (which is often) that I don't feel like I have immediate control over. aargh! not good, but I am really focusing on being more aware of why and when I'm doing this and I call myself on it! YES! I tell myself out loud to STOP and think! Boy I know that sounds crazy right?!
Observations- I've learned that the fact that I have stuck with this challenge is catching on at home too. My two guys know that I am tired and would sometimes rather stay at home, but I get home make dinner and get ready to go. Sometimes I do take a 30 minute nap! Today, my Honey and I went on a hike that was about 2 hours! We had a great time as always but we've agreed that we will go on a hike at least once a week! My son has gone out for a run early in the morning a couple of times. I'm still getting lots of support at home. I also continue to observe how hard everyone works in class and I continue to push myself to work as hard as I can. As soon as I see Erinne, Thelisha, Carlos and Brittany (we're on the same side) doing those jump squats full force, I just know I need to step it up and keep going. The POWER of the group!
Goals- Step away from the CHIPS! I need to find a crunchy healthy substitute! They are my nemesis right now. I've tried the kale chips and will make them throughout the week. I also love nuts, but I know they have too many calories. I just can't have so many.
Have carbs earlier in the day. If I feel like having an oatmeal cookie, have it in the morning. Not after I get home.
Continue to workout HARD and come work on a workout routine that I will stick with for the next 30 days. I need a plan. Talk to Ashley, Maia and other coaches about an eating plan and workout routine.
Find another method to log my food! I just can't seem to consistently get on myfitnesspal! At least log in this last week to have something to work off of.
I'm excited about the running group and everything else that lies ahead for me!
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